Things I Didn’t Say

As I lie here trying to sleep, I remember again, that my phone doesn’t ring. I remember it’s silence, your silence.  I imagine all the things you would say, could say.  I imagine the lilt in your words, the laughter on your tongue. As I lie here trying to sleep, I remember again, that my…

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What do you title Random Journal Postings?

05/08/2020:                See, writing every day totally hasn’t happened.  But I have to learn to be okay with that.  I have to learn to be okay with a lot of things, it’s the only way to get better.  I feel like this writing is supposed to be more.  More what?  Just, well, more.  I forget…

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It’s Been Ages

To keep from making this post longer than it already is, I will add more information at a later date. Doctor and books recommend a lot of writing in the coming months to process my new diagnosis and undo distorted thinking.  What better thing to do than share it all with the tiny little world…

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I am a Warr;or

Longest. Post. Ever.   I made a deal with myself that if I got my latest tattoo that I had to tell the compact version of my story. And I know it sounds silly, I can totally break a deal with myself. But no, actually, I can’t bring myself to do that. But before I…

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What Drama Isn’t

Drama is a word I have heard thrown around a lot recently.  It makes me wonder if most of us even know what it really means.  I am hearing it so much, every time someone says it I hear, “Inconceivable!” echo in my mind.  Promptly followed by, “You keep using that word.  I do not…

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When Your Soul is Torn

How does one deal with a huge contradiction of appearances? What do you do when everything appears calm like the surface of a lake, and your little boat suddenly capsizes? You discover hungry lake monsters and boiling lava instead of the earnest help of a friend. How can a brain rationalize and process such confusion…

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Water

Water. H2O As my daughter would say, when she wants a refill, “Mom, may I have some more nice refreshing water?” That thing that my son likes to send down the drain at alarming rates while he “forgets” what the shower is for and plays. In the cool of night, it collects on the edges…

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